everything we had

is no longer there.

so, this is my new blog. :) and out of the billions i have around this web, i might actually commit to this one. AT THE LEAST, once a week. welp, to start it off. i suck at grammar, i'm a pretty good speller but i'm too lazy to spell check and i don't capitalize anything unless it's for emphasis. BUT, moving right along:

this day, has been then most...possibly, eventful day of my life. out of all the shit that i've been through this..almost tops it. i won't go into detail or anything but i came to a lot of realizations today:

• that eye for an eye stuff, really is BULLSHIT. an eye for an eye and the world goes blind.
• what's the point of defending something that's not true? it's like, climbing a tree that's not there. does that make sense? ha, no. you wind up looking psycho aka guilty.
• if it has nothing to do with you, stay out of it.
• nobody likes a whiner.
• even when you think it can't get any worse, it will. it always will, no matter what. but if you try to forget the little things and learn to shrug off the small things, i promise you, you will come out on top.
• you really can't change the world until you change yourself first.
• you can't make something out of nothing, if you had nothing to begin with, you have nothing to end with. what did you guys really gain from all the stuff you started from lies? you lost a couple of friends, but at least you have each other i guess. what happens when you aren't on good terms with each other? i promise you one thing, i won't be there for you. ever again.
• if you and your friends don't have the same values and goals, sometimes, it really just doesn't work out and you have to go your seperate ways.

that was pretty much my day in random thoughts. i just knew today was gonna be a good day, then this happened. PLUS, i'm all moody from my period and shiz.

try pissing off a manic depressive, disassociative disorder-laden chick on her period. ha, doesn't work realy well does it?
(for the record: i do suffer from manic depression and a disassociative disorder: depersonalization disorder and i am on my monthly.)