sittin at a bar(bartender song) - rehab

like i promised...here it is :D

Bar tender I really did it this time

Broke my parole to have a good time

When I got home it was 6 a.m.

The door was locked so I kicked it in

She was trippin' on the bills

I think she was high on some pills

She threw my shit out into the yard

Then she called me a bum and slapped me real hard

And in my drunkin' stooper

I did what I should of never done

Now I'm sittin' here talking to you

Drunk and on the run

I'm sittin' at a bar on the inside

Waitin' for my ride on the outside

She broke my heart in the trailer park

So I jacked the keys to her fuckin' car

Crashed that piece of shit and then stepped away

You know mo I'll probably get ten years

So just give me beers 'til they get here

Yeah I know the sun is comin' up

And yall are probably gettin' ready for closin' up

But I'm trying to drown my soul

I'm tired of this life on a dirt road

And everything that I love is gone

And I'm tired of hangin' on

She got me sittin' at a bar on the inside

Waitin' for my ride on the outside

She broke my heart in the trailer park

So I jacked the keys to her fuckin' car

Crashed that piece of shit and then stepped away

I guess it's meant to be

Romance is misery

So much for memories

And now I'm headed to the Penitentiary

See me on T.V.

The next cop series

I am a danger

I guess I should've done something about my anger

But I'll never learn

Real things I don't concern

I pour kerosene on everything I love and watch it burn

I know it's my fault

But I wasn't happy it was over

She through a fit so I crashed that piece a shit nova

And now I'm goin' back again

Back to the pen to see my friends

And when we all pile out that county van

They'll ask me where I've been

I've been at a bar on the inside

Waitin' for my ride on the outside

She broke my heart in the trailer park

So I jacked the keys to her fuckin' car

Crashed that piece of shit and then stepped away

this song wa intended to be funny but there are people out there that actually live this this is like their anthem. but i love it! xD

uncle craker in starkville, ms.

so um, im kinda in love with uncle craker and his catchy oldish tunes xD haha, soooo ya. this is my new music love. his song "follow me" was the first song i remember memorizing and i still know every word to this day! he had a concert recently in starkville and i sooo wanted to go, but my mom replied, "are you outta your goddamned mind?" and i was all, "can't blame me for trying."

i just discovered his song smile and here are the lyrics and video :) hope you enjoy.

You're better then the best

I'm lucky just to linger in your light

Cooler than the flip side

Of my pillow, that's right

Completely unaware

Nothing can compare to where

You send me, lets me know that it's okay

Yeah, it's okay

And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed

Sing like bird, dizzy in my head

Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe

Shine like gold, buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

Oh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone,

Somehow you come along just like

A flower pokin' through the sidewalk crack

And just like that

You steal away the rain, and just like that

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed

Sing like bird, dizzy in my head

Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe

Shine like gold, buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

Oh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you

'Cause every time that I get around you

I see the best of me inside your eyes

You make me smile

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe

Shine like gold, buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed

Sing like bird, dizzy in my head

Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe

Shine like gold, buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

Oh, you make me smile

(Oh, you make me smile)

Oh, you make me smile

(Oh, you make me smile)

Oh, you make me smile

next post is my next fav song by rehab :D

gardens and wii.

so my garden consists of:
1 begonia
4 marigolds

and my latest additions:
1 dusty miller
4 petunias

its gonna look greattt, i might post pictures of it once it gets a little better :D


anddd my lovely friend avery gave me his wireless router since he got a new one and its gonna be great! haven't tested it yet since im at school xD sooo ya, i might have to forget spanish tonight.

oh ya, dont forget earth day next thrusday! you should try to find an earth day project! change the world one earth day at a time.

a deeper truth.

sometimes i find
myself staring deep in-
to the planes where we live;

and where we die,

with each death you detach,
and swing, i hang on-
to that very last
frayed thread:


im sorry i made you
remember how being
vulnerable felt.
and im sorry you forgot
in the first place.

the world is gonna end before we know it.

well since i havent posted in a while...ill just tell you whats been going on lately with my exciting life! :D *coughcough*
there's a blood drive going on at our school that happens april the sixth. thanks to my lovely english teacher i will feel horrible if i dont do it. im just afraid of needles and large amounts of fluids leaving my body...makes me nervous. o.0

i've been trying to be inspired enough to write something. but i can't make myself be inspired. no matter how hard i try. i've been inspired enough to read three books at once, i've never even read TWO books at once. so, hah! i CAN and will do it. :D i've been in such a good mood these past few days. i've started back writing, just little bits and pieces that could stand alone. nothing ever together. is it still considered prose if it's two sentences? either way, i think my soul has been secretly searching for itself. i mean, i found me and then i lost me again. and ive fell out of love with the beetles and back in love with sappy, heart-breaking crap. im-in-so-much-pain-i-wanna-kill-you. all types of stuff. im in a funk all together....eh. thats all until i get re-inspired.

here's something to ponder:

tikkun olam: repairing the world.
In reference to individual acts of repair, the phrase "tikkun olam" figures prominently in the Lurianic account of creation and its implications: God contracted the divine self to make room for creation. Divine light became contained in special vessels, or kelim, some of which shattered and scattered. While most of the light returned to its divine source, some light attached itself to the broken shards. These shards constitute evil and are the basis for the material world; their trapped sparks of light give them power.
The first man, Adam, was intended to restore the divine sparks through mystical exercises, but his sin interfered. As a result, good and evil remained thoroughly mixed in the created world, and human souls (previously contained within Adam's) also became imprisoned within the shards.
The "repair," that is needed, therefore, is two-fold: the gathering of light and of souls, to be achieved by human beings through the contemplative performance of religious acts. The goal of such repair, which can only be effected by humans, is to separate what is holy from the created world, thus depriving the physical world of its very existence—and causing all things return to a world before disaster within the Godhead and before human sin, thus ending history.

like nick told norah..what if we are the pieces?