the world is gonna end before we know it.

well since i havent posted in a while...ill just tell you whats been going on lately with my exciting life! :D *coughcough*
there's a blood drive going on at our school that happens april the sixth. thanks to my lovely english teacher i will feel horrible if i dont do it. im just afraid of needles and large amounts of fluids leaving my body...makes me nervous. o.0

i've been trying to be inspired enough to write something. but i can't make myself be inspired. no matter how hard i try. i've been inspired enough to read three books at once, i've never even read TWO books at once. so, hah! i CAN and will do it. :D i've been in such a good mood these past few days. i've started back writing, just little bits and pieces that could stand alone. nothing ever together. is it still considered prose if it's two sentences? either way, i think my soul has been secretly searching for itself. i mean, i found me and then i lost me again. and ive fell out of love with the beetles and back in love with sappy, heart-breaking crap. im-in-so-much-pain-i-wanna-kill-you. all types of stuff. im in a funk all together....eh. thats all until i get re-inspired.

here's something to ponder:

tikkun olam: repairing the world.
In reference to individual acts of repair, the phrase "tikkun olam" figures prominently in the Lurianic account of creation and its implications: God contracted the divine self to make room for creation. Divine light became contained in special vessels, or kelim, some of which shattered and scattered. While most of the light returned to its divine source, some light attached itself to the broken shards. These shards constitute evil and are the basis for the material world; their trapped sparks of light give them power.
The first man, Adam, was intended to restore the divine sparks through mystical exercises, but his sin interfered. As a result, good and evil remained thoroughly mixed in the created world, and human souls (previously contained within Adam's) also became imprisoned within the shards.
The "repair," that is needed, therefore, is two-fold: the gathering of light and of souls, to be achieved by human beings through the contemplative performance of religious acts. The goal of such repair, which can only be effected by humans, is to separate what is holy from the created world, thus depriving the physical world of its very existence—and causing all things return to a world before disaster within the Godhead and before human sin, thus ending history.

like nick told norah..what if we are the pieces?